My Testimony and God's Working in my Life

[BillysWife]

My Testimony and God’s Working in My Life

I made a profession of faith when I was 3 yrs old, and was baptized when I was 9. All down through the years, I thought I was saved, but would sometimes doubt, and occasionally get real scared when I would wake up in the middle of the night and it was deathly silent. I was so scared the rapture had happened, but I would tell myself it was silly to be scared like that since I was already saved, and would go too, when the rapture happened. This past Sunday (9-19-04) was homecoming at our church, and the guests for the day was Johnny and Susan McGill and the Victorious Valley Home for Girls. Mr. McGill preached a message about knowing a real Christian, and God began convicting my heart that I really wasn’t saved. I was struggling all week, because I tried to convince myself that I was saved back when I was 3, but deep down inside, I knew I wasn’t because there hadn’t been any repentance. This past week has got to have been the most miserable week of my life. This morning (9-26-04) I was reading my Bible and God convicted my heart so deep, I just couldn’t stand it any longer. I got down on my knees and accepted Jesus as my Savior! I had brought a change of clothes with me since a lot of times we stay down at church, so I was able to be baptized about 3.5 hrs after I got saved! I am just rejoicing in how good God has been to me, and so happy to know for sure that I’m on my way to heaven! 2 added blessings, is that within the last 2 weeks, both Samuel and Peter went through a similar experience! All 3 of us were baptized today, and it is just so amazing at how good God has been to us! Today is the happiest day of my life, because I’m no longer living the lie I was living for almost 14 years! All praise goes to God!

[benshelpmeet]

Dear little sister what joy fills my heart as I read your precious testimony! What a blessing to my soul. It is wonderful to know the Lord can shed light on our hearts even when we think were saved but were really not. The same thing happened to our associate pastors wife when we were in bible collage. She was a lovely christian lady, she was a compassionate soul winner too. But she wasn't saved and God in his mercy opened her eyes and saved her precious soul. It was hard for her to humble herself and be saved because she didn't want to make others doubt there salvation. That was just a lie of the devil to keep her in bondage. I'll never forget how the Lord saved this precious sister.

Thank you for sharing your testimony with us. Our whole house is rejoicing with you. We are just so happy!

I love you little sister, ~ Darlene ~

[benshelpmeet]

I'm still rejoicing over your salvation. You are a sweet girl with a heart toward the Lord and you are precious to me.

I love you little sister, I know your having alot of fun making Sorghum!

[BillysWife]

This was actually a post I wrote for another message board, but I thought y'all would like to know what's been going on around here! It was written 12/18/04



You all know about my profession of faith I made back in Sept. so I won't repeat it here. Well, the past 3 months have been full of doubts about my salvation, alonge with extreme fear about going to hell, missing the rapture, etc. I've talked with my parents, pastor. After talking to people, I would think everything was allright, be kinda on a "spiritual high" for a few days, only to fall back into the same pit again. After that would happen, I would get so depressed, once even to the point that I thought for about 2 minutes about suicide. But the whole time, it would bother me that I hadn't really been convicted of my sin. I knew in my head I was a sinner, but deep down inside I thought of myself as a "good kid"--I mean, I had never gotten into the "big" sins like drugs, drinking, etc. I knew in my head what the Bible says about all people being sinners, but it really wasn't in my heart. I would try to convince myself I was saved because I did this or that. But at the same time, I was also kinda leaning toward the things of the world, having a desire to try the things they were doing, etc. A while back, when I thought I didn't have anything to repent of, I thought about running away to join the street kids and make something to repent of. I know this is probably not the picture you got of me at all! This past week, God just started opening me up and showing me the way I really was. I was a sinner, and not only that, I was lost, because there's no way one can get saved without being convicted of their sins. Saturday afternoon we went shopping at a Christian bookstore before going to Christmas play practice. I picked up a few things for the family. Before going to bed that night, I started looking through them, and one of the things I had bought was a devotional by John Wesley called Renew Your Mind. I started looking through it, and the first few devotionals was all about repentance and being saved. So here I was, realizing for the first time what a sinner I am, and reading on every single page "repent and be saved". I got so uncomfortable reading all that, so I turned my light off and tried to pray like I usually do before going to sleep, but I just couldn't pray, and I definitely couldn't sleep. I was just so convicted, I knew what I had to do. So I prayed and asked Jesus to forgive my sins and to save me, and He did! Doubting thoughts still come, but I don't sit there and worry about them anymore, because I know for sure now, that my sins are forgiven and I'm on my way to heaven! Another thing--when we practiced the play on Saturday, the pastor's wife was so impressed by my facial expressions, because they looked so perfect for the part I was playing (an unsaved girl that gets saved in the end). I had to tell her yesterday, that all that was not fake! I need to apologize for living a lie for the past 3 months, and ask that y'all pray for me, because I have no idea how to properly live a Christian life, as I've never lived it before!